I’ve always struggled to explain what it’s like to have an eating disorder. Words never seem to do justice to the torment and havoc eating disorders wreak in a person’s mind and belief-system.
Years ago, in the midst of a 10-year battle with an eating disorder, I wrote this as an attempt to explain my twisted, inner reality. It’s my hope, sharing it now, that it will help friends and family, of those suffering from eating disorders, better understand the inner turmoil.
It’s a blessing to be able to say that this isn’t my reality anymore
Kendall Baker recently wrote an article that inspired questions about what an eating disorder is. It’s a difficult disorder to understand and challenging from the standpoint that with other “addiction” type mental illnesses because you can’t abstain from food. One has to eat to survive. Michelle posted a question and these two young ladies answered it.
My name is Carly and I’ve been in recovery from an eating disorder for almost 6 years now. I struggled with anorexia as well and still have a difficult time explaining it.
It’s almost as if there is another person in your … Read more...
I kissed the top of her head and walked toward the door. I paused. I knew this was it. I turned around to look at her and try to memorize her image, an image I barely recognized due to her physical state.
“I’ll see you later,” I said. “I will.”
Katie smiled a forced smile and nodded. She knew what I meant.
I let the door close behind me. I was twenty nine and she thirty, but I knew that was the last time I’d … Read more...
If had to choose a phrase that encapsulates my story and the pain and suffering I’ve experienced, it would be: “collateral beauty.”
Several years ago, I lost my best friend (who was also my roommate) to suicide. It turned my world upside down.
There are no words to explain the devastating grief that washes over you after a complex loss like suicide; it’s as unpredictable and relentless as waves crashing over the seashore. I wrestled with the never-ending questions and the monstrous-of-all questions, “why?” I broke time and time again over the feeling that I somehow failed … Read more...
We need to share our stories about addiction, mental illness, grief overdose and suicide. We must talk about our family’s pain as it relates to the illness of addiction and mental illness because it’s a family issue.
The stories shared with me to post here on emotionally naked this past two weeks have been amazing. I had some prior to that that I included on this page.
You think no one cares or wants to listen?
You’d be wrong.
Visitation to the site has quadrupled lately and we will soon reach 200,000 people reached since Feb 2016. People are interested. And … Read more...
If I had to describe myself in one word, it would be fighter. Throughout my whole journey I have had to fight day in and day out to find happiness. I have had to fight for the one thing I have always wanted the most, full recovery.
For those who don’t know me, here is my story
I’ve always had insecurities and struggles–the biggest was separation anxiety from my mom.
In elementary school, I remember running to my mom who worked at the school, and clinging to her as my teacher pulled me off. I know now … Read more...