A “medium” is defined as a person claiming to be in contact with the spirits of the dead and communicate between the dead and the living.
It’s been on my mind the last four years. I don’t think it can hurt and might make me feel good about the experience. What was your experience if you did go to one? Did you go in person or was it by phone or skype? How did you choose the one you went to? Do you think it’s all BS mumbo jumbo?
I am not sure my husband would be into this although … Read more...
That phrase plays in my head when I start to go to the place where the regrets are hitting me in the face and the pain of having missed the obvious signs of Charles’ suicide take up too much space in my head.
I could drown in all this. I have drowned in it. I’m now able to pull myself out of the deep end.
The bottom line is I know so much now about addiction and suicide that I often find it hard to remember when I … Read more...
Not long ago, I was listening to someone talk about the death of his son who died at age 29 from heart problems. He said something that bothered me that I have heard previously. I really hate to nitpick what someone says in their child’s or other loved one’s memory but it perpetuates a dangerous cultural custom.
He said, “My son never complained about the treatment or surgeries prior to his death.” I had to wonder if his son ever got the chance to express his fear or sadness of early death.
You’d think that after losing a son to suicide, that would be my go-to feeling. Why wasn’t it?
I’m not telling you this because I think I am more “noble” than someone else. I’m not. In fact, I wondered if I might be abnormal. Which is possible.
One is that I wasn’t raised in a household where my family made me think of religion as an investment or type of insurance that would earn me extra protection from God in the future. And over the years, I found myself feeling grateful–grateful that I was not exposed … Read more...
the definition of the U.S. National Center for Health
Statistics, a chronic
disease is one lasting three months or more, and generally cannot
be prevented by vaccines or cured by medication, nor do they just disappear on
their on its own.
Some chronic diseases include cancer, diabetes, mental illness, cardiovascular diseases such as hypertension or high blood pressure, and respiratory diseases such as asthma, and emphysema.
Despite many advances in medicine over the past one hundred years, and despite better understanding … Read more...
Three years ago I came across a passage on Anticipatory Grief.
Anticipatory Grief “There are numerous obstacles that inhibit family recovery from addiction. One of the most critical is the cumulative effects of anticipatory grief. Anticipatory Grief (AG) is a process through which grieving begins in expectation of an imminent loss. It is the rehearsal- the progressive letting go-that unfolds as a loved one’s behavior might lead to death.
AG is particularly evident when families have experienced numerous near-death experiences of a family member, such as when a loved one with addiction overdoses. … Read more...
Elizabeth Bryan Jarrard was my first granddaughter so that made her special plus she was my namesake. She had riotous curls every mother wants for her little girl. Elizabeth became an Army brat early born at Ft. Bragg and moving to her dad’s other posts including Alaska and Belgium.
At each move every three years every school district proved more difficult for her academically. When my son in law finally retired to Frisco, TX we hoped she would find her place amount lasting friends at the last high school; however that began her descent into a very … Read more...
The message I have to deliver is one people need but not one they necessarily want to hear.
Many expect that they will hear a sad story and there will be no humor. After all, it’s a story about my child’s depression, addiction to heroin and his suicide. So of course there are parts that bring me and the audience to tears. It’s not a comedy.
However, I am also telling a story about the funniest, most popular kid in school. And there are times in our story that I had to laugh or I would have … Read more...
I walked into a grocery store. I was trying to do real life things but it was like wading through sludge. Thankfully, we still had meals coming to the house and what I needed was just the basics. I was so grateful for that.
As soon as I went inside, I saw someone I knew duck quickly into another aisle.
My God I was being avoided.
For the most part, my friends and neighbors had greeted me, hugged me. I had been very public about my son’s addiction and suicide. But this stung. I had experienced the most devastating loss … Read more...
The weight of the grief at first was so unbearable, I was sure i couldn’t survive. I never knew emotional pain inspired so much physical hurt. And this statue expresses that so well. Grief, like love, inspires beautiful and meaningful art.
It hurts all year, some months more than others, but July is our month of acknowledgement and our opportunity to educate.
I’m going to post here a few of the hundreds of grief posts from this site. I literally wrote my way through the grief process and still do. I will be doing things throughout the month in honor … Read more...