#URockProject heart— #griefheart number 258

#URockProject for Team Charles 2017

There is a project in Richmond, VA intended to spread joy in the darkness of struggle or loss called the #URockProject. Anyone who finds one of these rocks and is touched by the message can take it home to keep.

To everyone out there fighting the stigma of mental illness or adjusting to life after read more

Virginia is for lovers— #griefheart number 258

virginia is for lovers
Virginia is for lovers

This is my husband’s first #griefheart donation. He saw it while walking the dog in the neighborhood. This one resonates because Charles loved Richmond, Virginia.

When we had to send him away for therapeutic boarding school, he was homesick. He wanted to come home to Richmond.

When we sent him read more

Love locks— #griefheart number 257

For several years now, love locks have been considered one of Cologne’s most charming traditions. As proof of their love, couples fix padlocks to the railings on the Hohenzollern Bridge; to ensure everlasting love, they then throw the key into the Rhein river below.

The padlocks collectively read more

Beach glass heart— #griefheart number 256

This heart reminds me of all of our family beach vacations at the Outer Banks. Charles loved being with his cousins there. He didn’t love going in the ocean a whole lot and despite signing him up for swim lessons and more swim lessons, he refused to participate in them and as a result was read more

Billy Derr’s meatlover heart—#griefheart number 255

Billy Derr’s Meatlover’s heart

From Anne Moss: This #griefheart in memory of Billy Derr. Billy died from an overdose caused by substance use disorder. Jenny didn’t just make pizza. She made memories. 

From Jenny Derr: We made homemade pizza tonight.

Which we made the last weekend Billy was home.  💙 Missing him a lot.

This read more

Warm heart— #griefheart number 251

pie heart
Warm heart

Charles had a warm heart. And apple pie reminds me of that. It reminded me of how he was there for others. It’s like after he died, I found out all these new things about him I didn’t know before.

Story after story of how he reached out and knew just what to say to those suffering from read more

Mile marker heart— #griefheart number 250

milemarker-heart
Mile marker heart

My heart feels like it has traveled a thousand miles. At moments, I feel I’m at the beginning of the trail. Other days I realize how far I’ve come since losing my son to suicide.

It’s been a long, painful journey–two steps forward, one step back and then forward again.  As read more

Hiking heart— #griefheart number 248

hiking heart
Hiking heart

I was hiking with friends, Bonnie and MaryJo, when we spotted this heart. Literally a heart in the woods that someone painted on the end of this log. This was the last place I would have expected to see a heart. Charles was walking with us.

My husband often goes to hike in the woods to find peace from read more

Dirty driveway heart— #griefheart number 246

Oil slick heart

My sister-in-law’s sister sent me this. It was taken in Florida at my in-law’s condo. That was where Charles went with his grandparents a few hours before going to detox as a result of opiate withdrawal. At that point, none of us knew he was addicted to heroin. So you can imagine the shock read more