Setting expectations for the holidays after the death of a child

The first Christmas after Charles died by suicide, I expected it to be hard. All those firsts are hard–first birthday, mother’s day, father’s day etc. Hell, Arbor Day was hard.

For the second Christmas after Charles’ suicide, I was sure the holidays would be better. After all, read more

Over a year after my son’s suicide, I no longer hate being alive

by Christine Dudek

There’s something about the light piercing through the clouds at 30,000 feet when I’m lucky enough to get a window seat. It looks like every picture of heaven I’ve ever imagined since I was a little kid and so it makes me feel closer to Tyler.

Flying has gone from the read more

My boyfriend died from a drug overdose

by Victoria Kiarsis

Billy Derr and Victoria Kiarsis

I met Billy Derr at a 12-step meeting in Boston in the fall of 2014.

Although I didn’t think much about him at the time and was even dating someone else, Billy had different ideas. He told me later that when he saw me for the first time, in my burgundy pants, tan booties, and leather read more

Melancholy Moments

A song, or a familiar visual triggers a memory of Charles. Right then, there is a place in my mind I go to sink into it all by myself. No sounds or other thoughts penetrate. And I don’t want interruptions or company because this is my time with my child that is no longer here on earth.

Sometimes read more

Have you lost someone to suicide in the last five months?

by Noam Schneck, PhD
Assistant Professor, New York State Psychiatric Institute/Columbia University

We hope that you will be able to join our mission of helping people grieving suicide.

The Survive Together Research Study at New York State Psychiatric Institute/Columbia read more

I’m not doing enough

Sometimes when I meet other moms or dads who’ve lost a child to suicide or drug-related death, they feel as if they are not doing enough for the cause.

Compared to me usually.

So there are some things I want to point out.

For one thing, we have enough to beat ourselves up about with a child’s read more