Met Beth Macy, author of Dopesick

I saw many friends tonight at a book signing event and it was a pleasure to hear Beth Macy, author of Dopesick tell the story behind the writing of her book. Seeing a female writer from Virginia do well is inspiring.

I handed out Diary of Broken Mind book marks. It wasn’t a case of me poaching her customers as these attendees had already bought the book. And they needed a bookmark to keep their place, right?

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Nobody Cares

How many times has this phrase nagged your conscious? My guess is you’ve struggled with this at one time or another.

In grief, the sad sap “nobody cares” mantra played on repeat in my head and I had to fight it with self talk. The world dared to move on without my son in it. It kept rotating, people kept drinking coffee, driving to work, and going about their day even though my heart and my motherhood was pummeled by the news Charles had taken his life.

Nudging myself out of “nobody cares” mode was like pushing a car through … Read more...

My son died. My love for him did not

My relationship with Charles after his death has continued and evolved. The idea that I’d have a relationship with someone who is dead makes me sound like I’m in need of a good therapist or that I am unable to accept his death.

Grief is something that lives along side me now. Talking to the air, consulting my beloved dead for advice, or laughing about something I know he’d find funny is part of that new relationship, if you could call it that. As my grief has changed and softened, so has the relationship.

I have not read tarot cards, … Read more...

Runway 2 Life

Me and Stephanie Cole, walk co-chair for this years Out of the Darkness walk in Richmond 

Runway 2 Life, a fashion show in support of suicide prevention training, was tonight. I thought I was in New York. Everything was so well done and the venue at Main Street Station so elegant. Best of all, the event attracts people we don’t often see at other mental health and suicide prevention events. It truly is special.

My hat is off to Alicia, founder, and Michelle, her worthy right hand woman volunteer, for all their hard work. And I had to run … Read more...

#brokenmind

The stars of the emotionally naked tribe. I’ve asked that when people get the book that they post a photo of themselves with the book with the hashtag #brokenmind.

I don’t have a high-priced publicity team. But I have you guys! Thank you so much.

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Support groups aren’t therapy but they are therapeutic

Whether it’s a group of peers, or loved ones gathering in regards to the addiction, mental illness or death of a loved one, support groups are one of the best options for recovery. And yes, even the loved ones need recovery.

Some people think support groups are a bunch of tree-hugging hippies, wearing robes, singing kumbaya while swaying back and forth holding hands. Many people struggle for years, yet resist attending a support group. Excuses range from, “It takes too much time” to “They’ll not be my kind of people.”

I have a news flash for you. There will be … Read more...

My cert from NAMI Family-to-Family Class

Family to Family is a class offered through NAMI, National Alliance of Mental Illness. It’s free due to their fundraising efforts and it’s a class that is offered through twelve sessions. Sometimes once a week for 12 weeks and sometimes twice a week for 6 weeks.

Since I recommend it to others, I decided to take it myself. It’s a valuable course for those who live with a loved one who suffers mental illness and many NAMI chapters around the country offer the course in your area if you are in the United States.

You can go to the … Read more...

Note in the book from my publisher

PUBLISHER’S NOTE

This book is a departure. It is a departure, certainly, for Beach Glass Books. Our catalogue is replete with coastal books and historical books. We have published children’s books and books of true crime and essays, with novels on the way.

But never have we published a book like this.

Few have. This book is a departure even from others that one might think are in the genre. Books about the suicides of young people are available. But books that take a reader deep into the life of a family whose child dies by suicide, with telling recollection … Read more...

October is National Bullying Prevention month

Most have been bullied in their lifetime at some point including me. And while it is a practice that has existed since there were parents and children, it’s never been as 24/7 as it is these days with social media and texting when humiliation can spread like wildfire on a hot summer day in California.

I was always thankful that Charles was rarely bullied and from early on he understood that bullies had some underlying reason for their actions. I remember his being bullied on the bus at the age of 6 by a much older child which was killing … Read more...

I just want to end the pain

Your brain is telling you need to die. The pain is so unbearable, you start to think that is the only solution. You think there is no other way out and the world would be better if you weren’t in it.

You just want that pain to stop. Your brain convinces you the only way is to kill yourself. All other options are blocked. Your focus narrows and it’s ALL you can think about.

You don’t really want to die. But at the same time you do want to die.

The pain will stop without you dying. It usually takes … Read more...