That picture that prompts tears

Some pictures capture the very essence of my youngest child and his playful nature. This is one of them. I just can’t believe that child on the left suffered from depression and killed himself.

How did his brain shift from happy to “I need to kill myself.” It’s when I look back sometimes it seems so unbelievable. I wish I could have kept them young and innocent.

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Three digit number for suicide prevention

An FCC Report is recommending that the ten-digit suicide prevention lifeline, 1-800-273-8255, be shortened to the easier to remember three-digit number, 988. The FCC report says the current number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline was called more than 2.2 million times in 2018.

The agency found that in making a change, 988 could be implemented more quickly than repurposing an existing three-digit N11 code like 511 or 611. 

Along with that recommendation is that the call center be adequately funded. Smaller call centers are having to close due to lack of funding at a critical point when suicide rates … Read more...

How I found my laugh after loss

It had been two days since Charles’ death and my kitchen was packed with people. I was so grateful that all our friends and neighbors knew to come over. From 11am-5pm every day for seven days, our house was filled.

The three hours I spent the day after with just my husband and myself after Charles’ suicide in what seemed like a cavernous house was unbearable. I needed others in the room to absorb some of the overwhelming grief–grief that took me to my knees multiple times per day.

On that second day, standing in the kitchen with friends and … Read more...

When will you see the book cover?

Book Description: The funniest, most popular kid in school, Charles Aubrey Rogers, suffered from depression, addiction, and died by suicide. Diary of a Broken Mind focuses on the relatable story of what lead to Charles’ suicide at age twenty and answers the “why” behind his addiction and this cause of death, revealed through a mother’s story and years of his published and unpublished song lyrics. The last several chapters focus on hope and healing and how the author found her purpose and forgave herself.

So here’s the rough timeline for the book release:

Aug. 24: Book announcement online, along with …

Suicide prevention: How to ‘remove means’ when it’s a gun

Lock and Talk is part of a comprehensive approach to suicide prevention in Chesterfield County being implemented by the Chesterfield Suicide Awareness and Prevention Coalition in partnership with Chesterfield County Mental Health Support Services and Virginia Department of Behavioral Health and Developmental Services. I am part of the suicide coalition.

The goal is to:

  • Prevent suicides by restricting access to firearms, medications, and other potentially dangerous items during a mental health crisis
  • Educate the community about how to recognize and respond to warning signs of suicide

This is not an appeal to change current second amendment laws but an initiative for … Read more...

I was searching for a way to die…

Trigger warning: Strong emotional content and suicide method mentioned.

By Gene

I came across your post while researching how to hang myself. Ever the perfectionist, I wanted to make sure I was as efficient as possible.

The first thing that popped up on google was the suicide prevention hotline and right below was the video about Charles with the words, “I’m sorry you’re in so much pain.” I started to cry. Here was this total stranger reaching out and then sharing such a touching and painful story about the loss of her son, Charles.

Instead of finding instructions on …

The words didn’t seem real to me

by Jenna Malley

I woke up at 5:30am to go to the gym with my mom at 6am. Don’t ask me why – I must’ve been crazy or something – but I’d been going with her all week, so I figured, why not?

After the gym, we usually went to Dunkin Donuts for the much needed caffeine jolt, but she’d stayed late to talk to her trainer, so instead we just went directly home so she could get ready for work and I could… well sleep more. It was my summer vacation in 2014 and I was only working three … Read more...

Anne Moss on Shameless Mom Academy Podcast

Episode 358- Anne Moss Rogers: Honoring A Son Who Died By Suicide

I was so honored to have been asked to be on this podcast. So few in this space have the guts to tackle this subject. And Sara and I really connected. Please leave a review! You can listen right here on the page or at one of the links below.

Podcast Description: Sara Dean is the creator and host of the Shameless … Read more...