Category: Suicide

Nine months after my son Charles’ death by suicide, I was still struggling to get out of bed every day. My limbs felt so heavy, it was hard to walk, and even harder to run. But I did.

I had written an article for the newspaper that had taken six months to complete, totaling 1,200 words. It took me so long to write it because I was still processing the loss and I had told myself I wouldn’t send it to the editor until I could end it with a message of hope.

At the first of February 2016, it … Read more...

Why checking your phone first thing in the morning might not be the best for your mental health

I can tell you it wasn’t good for me. Something had to change and I had to do the steps to make it happen.

Emotionally it was making me feel sluggish and anxious. I was always feeling like time had slipped away from me.

For my new year’s resolution in January of 2024, I made the pledge that I would not reach for my phone first thing in the morning because it was adding up to be a time suck and I … Read more...

I wrote a post on LinkedIn about my last phone call with my son–the one I didn’t know was my last phone call before his death by suicide. A lovely woman named Catriona Nicholls from Dublin, Ireland wrote this poem below.

She wrote it out right then on my post like my son Charles did when lyrics came to him. No real editing or overthinking it, just writing it out. It reminded me of him and how he operated.

Poem by Catriona Nicholls

I’m sorry I didn’t pick up that day,
I would have if I knew it would turn … Read more...

by Jenny

I wish I didn’t feel this way. It’s an endless mind suck, full of chaos and pain. But, I do. I feel so ashamed that all I wish for is death.

When I speak up, I feel safe for a short while, but like a yo-yo, it snaps right back

I know all the right things to say, and there are times when it’s just easier to say those “right” things so as not to stress or upset someone, even the therapist.

I instinctively back down, afraid I am draining them, afraid I will somehow be punished (to … Read more...

by Jan

Note from AnneMoss Rogers. If you are part of a hospital system, please see Zero Suicide, a model that aims to improve care and outcomes for people at risk of suicide in healthcare systems. Also, take a look at the CAMs care model for compassionate treatment for suicidal patients. Finally, you can reach out to the 741-741 USA crisis text line or USA Prevention Lifeline at 988 if you are in crisis.

It had been an extremely difficult mental health journey leading up to the night of 10/26/23. I had been undergoing therapy with minimal improvement. I … Read more...

Note from AnneMoss: I have heard back from Devin and for now he is safe. If you struggle with thoughts of suicide, the USA Suicide Prevention Lifelines is 988, and the USA/Canada Crisis Text Line is 741-741. USA Warmlines are for nonemergencies but in case you need to talk.

by Devin

I’m a father to two adult children and 1 preteen and have been married for 22 years to the love of my life who ironically is an RN at a mental health facility.

I’m a correctional officer at a prison and I guess the vibes I deal with … Read more...