This thank you #griefheart is for all of you that have supported me in my grief following Charles’ suicide. I believe that you have to have a support network to be able to move forward and thankfully I’ve had that.
It’s my hope that this project has raised awareness of those grieving the loss of a child or a loved one by suicide. And that all those families get support for their loss.
When my son died by suicide, I did not erase him from my family tree. So I started a new tradition that allows us to grieve the loss of a loved one that died by suicide. To honor their struggles. Without shame. That’s what the #griefheart project is all about. Charles will always have a place in my heart. And how cool is that little heart inside the leaf?
This one was staring at me from Monument Avenue in Richmond, VA. Charles never wanted to live anywhere else. He loved Richmond. He loved the graffiti, the statues, the cobblestones, the river. Whatever his goals were as a famous rapper, he wanted this city to stay his home.
Every limb feels heavy and the heart inside the body that carries them. I didn’t know grief had such a physical effect. Every move feels like I’m trudging through quicksand. One day I will feel lighter and it won’t press on me like it does now. But today, all the why’s about my son’s suicide are stalking me. I keep saying, “I will survive. I will survive.” And I will. I wish I knew how.
To my boy- You are weighing on my heart today Charles. One of those days I can hardly breathe. I’ve been reading your music and … Read more...