The most satisfying posts to write

Some posts are so cleansing to write. These were the posts that helped me let go of bitterness, resentment, anger, sadness and guilt. Or at least deal with it more effectively. Not all of these were popular. But they were cleansing to me and it didn’t matter to me if thousands read it or none.

The final 48 hours

Dear heroin, I f–ing hate you

I am so sorry

Forgiving myself

How could I resent your child’s cancer fundraiser?

The long arm of the law reaches down Charles’ pants

Please do not avoid the subject of my son who died

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A song to you from Bemo Prince to promote emotional healing

From Anne Moss: I am honored Bemo shared this inspirational song. It represents hope and faith in the face of tragedy. 

Song Title: Two Little Children

by Bremo Prince
I guess we all have different ways of dealing with pain and suffering. When my son Trey died from SIDS in 1968, I was only nineteen.  I did not understand why God would allow such a thing to happen.

I struggled with bitterness for several years and blamed the loss of my son on the lord and took my … Read more... “A song to you from Bemo Prince to promote emotional healing”

Early grief after loss of a child

2 minutes, 12 seconds

 

This addresses the early grief of losing a child. Not to any specific cause of death although I lost my son Charles to suicide.

What can you expect after that initial intense grief of the early days? Will it be like that forever? What happens after that?  I can’t say all the stages but I can tell you what grief has become for me over time.

I hope this helps. Because I remember wondering what was in store for me. Would I ever love again, laugh again, live again? You will. I can’t say … Read more... “Early grief after loss of a child”

Flock of love— #griefheart number 245

I look at the sky a lot.

The clouds, in particular, are soothing to me since Charles’ suicide. I’m always amazed at how much entertainment is up there.

These birds formed a heart in New Mexico and Katherine caught it with her camera. It made me think of that Hitchcock movie, “The Birds.”

I remember watching the end of that movie with Charles. He didn’t see the whole movie and I remember him asking me a million questions but I couldn’t remember it exactly. He couldn’t believe it because he remembered every scene and every line in a movie or … Read more... “Flock of love— #griefheart number 245”

Heavy Heart- #griefheart number 15

#griefheart heavy heart

Every limb feels heavy today. Nothing going right either and you tend to take things harder when you are grieving.

You are weighing on my heart today Charles. One of those days I can hardly breathe. Been reading your music and your words. I finally found that song about Cal. Too ironic. Thank you for leaving me the gift of your lyrics. I love you.

What is the #griefheart project?

I explain my #griefheart project here.

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