Despite my bipolar disorder, I’ve been able to hold down a job

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Tammy and Anne Moss at the Trees of Hope fundraiser for Beacon Tree Foundation

by Tammy Ozolins

For 14 years now I have been able to hold down a job. When you suffer from mental illness, that is a big deal.

When I was first diagnosed with bipolar 2, I was working a full-time job and it was very hard to keep it. The depression made it very challenging. I did not want to go to work. Heck, I did not even want to get up in the morning.

All I wanted to do was stay in bed, not shower, … Read more...

You have Bipolar Disorder-Rapid Cycling

tammy ozolins and her dad after bipolar disorder diagnosis
Tammy Ozolins and her Dad

by Tammy Ozolins

This is what the doctor told me during my first hospitalization. I thought it was like a cut and all I had to do was put a band aid on it and I would be good to go.

I told the doctor I have things to do, so let’s just get this fixed.

I truly did not accept my mental illness at this point. I took my medicine. But once I started to feel better, I stopped. Why? Because I thought I knew what was best for me.

Boy, was I wrong!… Read more...

My First Tattoo. Covers my Scars, but Not my Journey

By Tammy Ozolins

Late one night I came home depressed. Living with Bipolar is difficult enough, but the depression was getting the best of me. So, I decided I had enough and I took a handful of my mom’s sleeping pills and was excited to be ending my life.

I then went to my bedroom and I remember the room spinning and I just laid down and the room went black. I woke up the next day and the first thing I said to myself, was “I am so stupid I cannot even kill myself right.” I went for several more weeks, still in … Read more...