Me: Some days I think, “How will I ever get through to people?” No one can hear me. I just feel drowned out.
Alter Ego: Everyone feels that way.
Me: I know that. But I feel that way today, damn it.
Alter Ego: So what do you want a pity party?
Me: No. I just want to be heard. I keep pushing and pushing and pushing. I feel like I’m yelling but the crowd around me drowns me out and it makes me feel like my message is just not important.
Alter Ego: You know there is so much noise out there, it takes time to get through.
Me: Eight years? What if I never do? What if I never find an agent for my book? I will have let Charles down. Let myself down
Alter Ego: What happened to all that confidence? Confidence you had yesterday?
Me: Evaporated. I know it’s temporary. But it’s such a struggle that some days I just feel defeated.
Alter Ego: It’s a marathon not a sprint. Hopefully this venting session will help you regroup.
Me: I know this technology world. If I feel this way– is it any wonder our teenagers do? Is it any wonder those suffering feel so awful?
Alter Ego: That’s why you have to stay at it.
Me: Some days my timing is just off. Why can’t I get one damn break at anything?
Alter Ego: It’s not about big breaks. It’s about perseverance. It’s about consistency. Some days will suck. Other days things will soar.
Me: I Just hate sometimes that people have absolutely no trust in me. Dismiss me like I’m going to depress the universe or something.
Alter Ego: Invest in those that do believe in you. You know there are a lot here who help spread the message. Focus on that. And them.
Me: That’s true. I can’t be all whiny.
Alter Ego: Don’t undermine yourself. It won’t help. You know that.
Me: I do.
Alter Ego: Time to snap out of it.