That’s why I talk about Charles. That’s why I wrote a book, started this blog, speak to groups, and give back. Because I want my youngest child’s life to have meant something.
That feeling that he didn’t really get to accomplish what he wanted and that I didn’t get to see him reach his goals leaves me feeling unfulfilled.
He wanted to be famous for his music. He definitely had the talent and gifts. I can’t be sure he could have survived the climb but I would have liked to have seen him soak up some notoriety.
And yeah I wanted that sense of pride. We all do as parents don’t we?
There is also the underlying feeling that for him to count I need to accomplish certain things. What if I fail? What if I go before I reach mine and his goals?
That’s part of my own struggle. There have been so many roadblocks along the way I’ve wondered if the universe is telling me something.
I knew this would never be easy. But sometimes I do wish it wasn’t so hard.
Oh Anne, I so understand this. It’s heartbreaking and for me causes a sense of desperation. You’ve done so much Anne to make Charles recognized! Not the way he or you would have hoped. 💔. I wanted that for Jill too. I don’t think she would have been able to make the climb fully either. I know her talent was recognized by those she did meet and those who loved her.
I wish carrying on your goal was easier. You’ve done amazing things! Please know how much you’re appreciated and loved!
Jayne you are a beacon of light today. Thank you. And Jilly was taken before she could fully express her talent too. I know you get it.
I understand. And Covid hasn’t helped.
It has not. I do miss the stage and bonding after. The bonding after being my favorite part.