I want my child’s life to have counted for something

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That’s why I talk about Charles. That’s why I wrote a book, started this blog, speak to groups, and give back. Because I want my youngest child’s life to have meant something.

That feeling that he didn’t really get to accomplish what he wanted and that I didn’t get to see him reach his goals leaves me feeling unfulfilled.

He wanted to be famous for his music. He definitely had the talent and gifts. I can’t be sure he could have survived the climb but I would have liked to have seen him soak up some notoriety.

And yeah I wanted that sense of pride. We all do as parents don’t we?

There is also the underlying feeling that for him to count I need to accomplish certain things. What if I fail? What if I go before I reach mine and his goals?

That’s part of my own struggle. There have been so many roadblocks along the way I’ve wondered if the universe is telling me something.

I knew this would never be easy. But sometimes I do wish it wasn’t so hard.

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AnneMoss Rogers

AnneMoss Rogers is a mental health and suicide education expert, mental health speaker, suicide prevention trainer and consultant. She is author of the Book, Diary of a Broken Mind and co-author of Emotionally Naked: A Teacher's Guide to Preventing Suicide and Recognizing Students at Risk with Kim O'Brien PhD, LICSW. She raised two boys, Richard and Charles, and lost her younger son, Charles to addiction and suicide on June 5, 2015. She is a motivational speaker who empowers by educating and provides life saving strategies and emotionally healthy coping skills. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now that's the legacy she carries forward in her son's memory. Mental Health Speakers Website.

4 thoughts on “I want my child’s life to have counted for something”

  1. Oh Anne, I so understand this. It’s heartbreaking and for me causes a sense of desperation. You’ve done so much Anne to make Charles recognized! Not the way he or you would have hoped. 💔. I wanted that for Jill too. I don’t think she would have been able to make the climb fully either. I know her talent was recognized by those she did meet and those who loved her.
    I wish carrying on your goal was easier. You’ve done amazing things! Please know how much you’re appreciated and loved!

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