Implying suicide is a cop out is a lazy and a flip comment from a limited point of view. We say it to try to make sense of something we don’t fully understand. It dismisses the fact that the thoughts, for many, can be pervasive. The intense, irrational part when someone is in danger of following through is temporary.
But when someone completes a suicide, we don’t always know how many times someone has suffered through it or what trauma, mental illness, or life event may have triggered it. Over time, they can be difficult to fight and wear someone down. I know for Charles, those episodes were unbearable and frequent and his sleep disorder exacerbated his isolation and pain.
I have struggled to put myself in the shoes of someone who is plagued by these thoughts and try to think of it from that point of view to understand them. This site and the contributions from many with lived experience have helped although I know it’s not the same as having to endure them. Fortunately, I don’t.
Charles fought suicide by writing his rap songs. He fought it by hanging pictures on the wall of his family. He constantly surrounded himself with people so he wouldn’t be alone and tempted to follow through when the thoughts struck. He did all of this for years starting in middle school and the drugs he did were a desperate attempt to cope with those thoughts because he didn’t know what else to do.
Saying that “Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem” further stigmatizes and marginalizes an already misunderstood concept and a population of people who fight for their own lives with little support and a lot of judgment. It’s a myth that fails to honor the courage of those who are fighting for their lives.