Me: Some days I just want to give up. I just feel like I’ll never be heard
Alter Ego: But you are being heard
Me: Why don’t I feel it?
Alter Ego: You can’t really expect that every day you’ll feel it
Me: I feel sure people are so tired of me. Want me to just shut up about it
Alter Ego: Why do you feel that way?
Me: Suicide is a dour subject that people want to tune out
Alter Ego: And you think you should shut up because of that?
Alter Ego: What are you expecting to happen?
Me: I don’t know. Nothing has ever landed in my lap. I work really really hard for everything.
Alter Ego: Is that a whine?
Alter Ego: Are you over that now?
Me: For now
Alter Ego: You just have to keep going and have faith. You know you are not ever going to give up right?
Me: Right. It’s all so clear to me now. Why didn’t I have this wisdom when I needed it? About suicide?
Alter Ego: Because you didn’t think you needed it. Who does? And that’s why you keep talking.
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2 thoughts on “My alter ego talks to me when I want to give up”
Hello, I read your Boomer article, and I think it is wonderful. I haven’t lost a loved one to suicide, but I am myself a potential suicide. (I should correct that to say “have been,” because I am on the road to recovery now, after over 40 years of struggling with mental illness.) I am working on a book about depression and suicide, which I hope to have finished by the end of the year.
Alan – I am so happy to hear that you’ve taken this step. Offers all of us hope