My alter ego talks to me when I want to give up

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Me: Some days I just want to give up. I just feel like I’ll never be heard

Alter Ego: But you are being heard

Me: Why don’t I feel it?

Alter Ego: You can’t really expect that every day you’ll feel it

Me: I feel sure people are so tired of me. Want me to just shut up about it

Alter Ego: Why do you feel that way?

Me: Suicide is a dour subject that people want to tune out

Alter Ego:  And you think you should shut up because of that? 

Me: No

Alter Ego:  What are you expecting to happen?

Me: I don’t know. Nothing has ever landed in my lap. I work really really hard for everything.

Alter Ego:  Is that a whine?

Me: Yes

Alter Ego:  Are you over that now?

Me: For now

Alter Ego: You just have to keep going and have faith. You know you are not ever going to give up right?

Me: Right. It’s all so clear to me now. Why didn’t I have this wisdom when I needed it? About suicide?

Alter Ego: Because you didn’t think you needed it. Who does? And that’s why you keep talking. 

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Anne Moss Rogers

I am an emotionally naked TEDx speaker, and author of the Book, Diary of a Broken Mind. I raised two boys, Richard and Charles, and lost my youngest son, Charles to substance use disorder and suicide June 5, 2015. I help people foster a culture of connection to prevent suicide, reduce substance misuse and find life after loss. My motivational, training and workshop topics include suicide prevention, addiction, mental illness, and grief. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now the legacy I try and carry forward in my son's memory. Professional Speaker Website. Trained in ASIST and trainer for the evidence-based 4-hour training for everyone called safeTALK.

2 thoughts on “My alter ego talks to me when I want to give up”

  1. Hello, I read your Boomer article, and I think it is wonderful. I haven’t lost a loved one to suicide, but I am myself a potential suicide. (I should correct that to say “have been,” because I am on the road to recovery now, after over 40 years of struggling with mental illness.) I am working on a book about depression and suicide, which I hope to have finished by the end of the year.

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