Charles thought drugs were the solution to his pain

Richard on the left. Charles on the right.

The first time Charles did a drug, the thoughts of suicide, hopelessness, and worthlessness of his depression were replaced by pure elation. He was instantly transformed into a magnificent, handsome, smart, and amazing person. He was all of those things without the drugs but his mental illness didn’t let him see that.

I am sure he thought, “Why is this not the answer? I feel so good.”

I see most of this in his music lyrics that he left. I personally saw this side of him only twice. One day he burst onto … Read more...