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The evolution of my heart

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Heavy Heart

When I first heard the news of my son’s suicide, the weight of it lay heavy on my chest, pressed me to the floor, and pinned me to my despair. As I moved through this journey called grief, I had days where it opened so wide with love and appreciation, I thought it might explode.

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Heart full of love

There were many times when I felt as if I was a kite on a tight string in a high wind flapping furiously in circles–ready to snap any moment. Darkness would move in and rob my motivation, take my energy and render me catatonic.

Many days my heart was drained as I clung to a small pilot light of hope.

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Unmotivated Heart

Other hearts joined mine and they allowed me to feel joy. Or cry.

I had no idea how long it would take to heal and what would be left of me when I got to that place in my travels. I had no idea what it meant to “carry someone in your heart.” But I do now.

Carry him in my heart

At first, it didn’t seem possible. I couldn’t see that far ahead and if I could have I would not have believed it.

It is possible to heal after the loss of a child. Don’t expect to be the same person you were before or that you won’t experience periods of profound grief. You somehow learn to live with it and keep loving.

See all the hearts from the #griefheart project, many of which were sent over the years as thousands saw hearts in everyday scenarios.

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AnneMoss Rogers

AnneMoss Rogers is a mental health and suicide education expert, mental health speaker, suicide prevention trainer and consultant. She is author of the Book, Diary of a Broken Mind and co-author of Emotionally Naked: A Teacher's Guide to Preventing Suicide and Recognizing Students at Risk with Kim O'Brien PhD, LICSW. She raised two boys, Richard and Charles, and lost her younger son, Charles to addiction and suicide on June 5, 2015. She is a motivational speaker who empowers by educating and provides life saving strategies and emotionally healthy coping skills. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now that's the legacy she carries forward in her son's memory. Mental Health Speakers Website.

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