Losing my child to suicide has forced me to take another look at my life. And it’s actually liberating to ditch things and basically spring clean my brain and no longer care about…..
1. What others think. I have never been one to worry a lot about this. But once I lost a child by suicide to depression and addiction, I totally let go of caring what others thought of me personally. You either take me as I am or you don’t. And conversely, I’m not going to be passing judgment on others either. It’s probably why I feel so bold about the mental health cause. I’m on a tear now and I will stop the day I die.
2. The small stuff. I am not going to sweat the small stuff. I’m not going to go postal about something I know is out of my control. For example, I’m not going to freak out when someone cuts me off in traffic. Nine times out of 10, the person is just making an error. And guess what? I’ve made an error in traffic, too.
3. Material goods. I could care less about stuff. I want less stuff. And I’m pickier about what I do get. I would rather pay for something I really want than have a bunch of things that I am not excited about. This whole grief experience has deflated any love of shopping I may have had and I’d rather spend my time with friends or family instead of the mall.