The hall of fame comment from Matt’s naked soul

This post is for you Matt.

Those with ‘lived experience’ are those who suffer suicidal thoughts and may or may not have had a suicide attempt. We need to listen to them. We need to honor their struggle. We need to be there for them.

A little background first

In 1995, I became interested in the internet marketing. After my son’s suicide, I sold my partnership in a digital marketing firm I co-owned for 7 years in January 2017 to pursue suicide prevention full time and all that goes with it– addiction, mental illness, and grief.

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How to hang yourself

Give this video just 51 seconds of your time.

I am so sorry you feel so badly you are looking up how to hang yourself. My son,  Charles, looked up this phrase, too.

He suffered from depression and addiction to heroin and died by suicide. People who were hurting as much as you are have told me the videos below helped them. They are from my son’s hurting soul.

I miss him every single day.

Please tell someone. Please talk to someone.  

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Ways to kill yourself

United States Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

Your brain hurts. You don’t want to die, you want to end the pain. It’s intense. It’s unbearable and you think the world would be better off without you.

My son who died by suicide wrote this.

“It’s the worst when you immerse into solitude
Your shadow is the only one who follows you
The mirror is the only one who talks to you
It eats you alive till it swallows you
Wallow through feeling hollow
thinking no one understands.”

I am sorry you hurt so much.

I want to help.

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So you are contemplating suicide…

Photo credit Italian photographer Giorgio Cravero

I want to scream, “Don’t do it!”

I want to beg you not to.

I want to tell you how utterly devastating it is to lose a child and reveal all my naked, agonizing grief over my loss.

Really what I need to do is just listen and let you know you matter.

You think you don’t matter. You might even be scoffing at this letter saying, “This woman doesn’t know me!”

What you don’t know is that you are the center of someone’s universe. Your brain won’t let you believe that right now.

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