Beach glass heart— #griefheart number 256

This heart reminds me of all of our family beach vacations at the Outer Banks. Charles loved being with his cousins there. He didn’t love going in the ocean a whole lot and despite signing him up for swim lessons and more swim lessons, he refused to participate in them and as a result was read more

Billy Derr’s meatlover heart—#griefheart number 255

Billy Derr’s Meatlover’s heart

From Anne Moss: This #griefheart in memory of Billy Derr. Billy died from an overdose caused by substance use disorder. Jenny didn’t just make pizza. She made memories. 

From Jenny Derr: We made homemade pizza tonight.

Which we made the last weekend Billy was home.  💙 Missing him a lot.

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Slime heart— #griefheart number 253

Slime heart
Slime heart

One of the cutest #griefhearts I have received!

This so reminded me of Charles. His favorite past time at this age was creating a mess. Gooey. Slimy. Squishy. Mushy. Sticky. He loved it all. And often wound up wearing most of his mess. Of course, when it was all done, trying to get him to participate read more

Mile marker heart— #griefheart number 250

milemarker-heart
Mile marker heart

My heart feels like it has traveled a thousand miles. At moments, I feel I’m at the beginning of the trail. Other days I realize how far I’ve come since losing my son to suicide.

It’s been a long, painful journey–two steps forward, one step back and then forward again.  As read more

Celery heart— #griefheart number 227

celery hearts
Celery heart

Charles loved wings at Buffalo Wild Wings. Hated the celery that came with them. Hated just about any vegetable and made fun of me for liking celery.

I remember when someone told me that if Charles had a better diet it might help with his depression. I definitely agree. Despite raising him with the read more

Love of junk food— #griefheart number 225

love of junk food
Love of junk food

No one had a worse diet than Charles. He was not raised that way and I refused to buy it. Charles would find it at someone else’s house.

His favorite was candy, of course. But chips and anything that was processed was a-OK. Donuts, Doritos, Cheetos, Funyuns, Chex Mix etc. He even wrote read more

Locked in my heart— #griefheart number 224

Peggy took this in Arizona after their locked bikes were stolen off their RV. Her sister commented,”Love the photo of the locks – keeps the perspective that our best ‘possessions’ are locked in our hearts.”

So true. I can lose stuff. Losing my child makes ‘stuff’ read more

Love remains— #griefheart number 219

love remains

Despite the fact Charles has left this earth, my love for him remains. Sometimes it’s hard to know where to put it and it makes me ache.

This photo a gift from my friend Dani. She spotted 25 feet away while walking in the woods.

What is the #griefheart project?

I explain my #griefheart project here.

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Mystery heart— #griefheart number 218


So my friend Connie goes out to her mailbox and low and behold this is on her driveway. From where? She doesn’t know. When she went back out, it was gone. Her son is out there somewhere. Unfortunately, her family has suffered intensely from her son’s addiction for over 12 years.

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Everlasting love — #griefheart number 202

Everlasting love

This one was sent to me by a childhood friend, Leigh. She saw it and sent it because it reminded her of the #griefheart project.

“The permanence of this stone heart is just as the love between you and Charles–everlasting.”

Losing a child to suicide makes connecting hard because so read more