Heart mussel – #griefheart number 96

Charles loved mussels. Remembering how much he loved them, I ordered them for the first time about 9 months ago. And then I ordered them again and again and found that I liked them, too.

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The day after

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I remember waking up. Then dreading that I woke up and reality hitting me like ice water in the face.

My child is dead. I am the mother of child who killed himself. I actually feel as if I am in someone else’s skin because it feels so foreign and prickly. I just want to slide out of myself and into someone else’s life. Anything but the one I’m in right now.

Randy and I hold each other sobbing. The coulda, woulda, shoudas hitting us hard in the light of day.

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So much grief – #griefheart number 95

From the Orlando night club shooting to the siege and beheadings of foreigners in Bangladesh to sniper shootings in Dallas and the terror attack in France, we have seen many brutal and shocking tragedies in the last 33 days. So much senseless loss. And for what?

While we don’t know how to fight this new war, its angry unseen enemies with no rules or regard for human life, we can support families around the world who are grieving the loss of loved ones.

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Frozen heart – #griefheart number 94

Today was one of those days where my heart just felt frozen in place–sort of like I was just existing, treading water, going nowhere. It’s one of those days where I question everything I’m doing and just wonder if any of what I want to happen will come to be. I just felt stuck.

It’s that draggy grief feeling that I have come to recognize as disbelief that I am without the son I thought would be here till I die. It’s another face of grief. Tomorrow is another day.

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Friends speaking at Charles’ memorial service Part 2

From theatre friends to Anne Moss’ friends, more stories about Charles at his memorial service after he died by suicide. Part 1 is here.

It took me a year to post all these and be able to watch them. I am very thankful to have them and for all the people that stood up and spoke in front of everyone that day.… Read more...

Charming hearts – #griefheart number 93

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Charming hearts

These little heart charms from my friend Carole in Fayetteville. They are so cute–all unique and different. Part of Charles’ charm was his eccentricity, his love of people, family and friends. Then there was his sense of humor, his amazing timing, his writing and undeniable creativity and talent.

People were always drawn in by Charles from the time he was a baby. He was charming by accident. I think he didn’t want to let people down by letting them know he suffered from depression.

What is the #griefheart project?

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Friends speaking at Charles’ memorial service Part 1

It took me one year and a month to post these. Thank you Wendy Holt for grabbing a camera that day and filming or I wouldn’t have them. My brain was still too fried and in shock to think of anything other than trying to make it through the day.

People gathered around Charles like a moth to a flame. I feel like I lost a son and I feel like I have lost Elvis. He was that on-the-spot talented. He could make up a rap song in an instant to cheer someone up or a joke that would bring … Read more...

Piece of my heart – #griefheart number 92

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I will heal and I will move forward but a piece of my heart will always be missing.

What is the #griefheart project?

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Thinking of you heart – #griefheart number 91

Just because the hearts I get are not always in the horizontal format, I wanted to acknowledge the thoughtfulness.

So I combined them so they fit. Lovely that I have all of you seeing hearts everywhere you turn. Like me.

What is the #griefheart project?

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Ask your oral surgeon to stop prescribing oxycodone for teen wisdom teeth removal

And parents please stop asking for it.

Seven percent of patients prescribed narcotic or opioid analgesics will become addicted.* Some statistics put it as high as 10%. Still others will abuse it or sell it. Do you want that to be your kid?

If you’ve never had an opiate, percocet, oxycodone or vicodin, you shouldn’t risk it either.

One pill can trigger an addiction

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You may not be someone prone to addiction. You may have thrown up or gotten sick or had some other bad experience.

For those with a predisposition for addiction, the result can be quite different and often has the effect … Read more...