Before and After

Ever since my son Charles died by suicide in June of 2015, I categorize everything as either before his death or after.

His death literally split my life in two and I am forever changed.

I still instinctively scan family photos taken after his death looking for him.

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Angel Devil heart – #griefheart 123

Angel devil heart
Angel devil heart

I remember when Charles picked this shirt out. It remember him in it. Charles always felt he had an angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other. I see a lot of angel/devil/demon references in his music.

Drugs were definitely a demon and made him feel as such. He hated himself for what they made read more

Sunny side up heart – #griefheart 122

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You can find one in the sky,
You can form one out of rocks,
You mold one out of play dough,
You can shape one out of socks.
You can make one out of buttons,
You can stamp one in the snow,
You can fill today with
hearts everywhere you go!

Thank you for sharing your heart–Mary-ellen

(Mary-ellen read more

Join us in Richmond VA for Out of the Darkness Walk #suicideprevention, #TeamCharlesRVA

AFSP Out of the Darkness Team Charles 2017 is here.

Join Team Charles for the AFSP (American Foundation of Suicide Prevention) for the Out of the Darkness walk on September 17, 2016.

If you can’t walk, consider a donation. Any amount is fine.

Charles Rogers was my son that died by suicide June read more

Poker heart – #griefheart number 121

card-heart

Charles loved games and he loved to play poker, too. He liked to play it with real money. Not big dollars but quarters and singles probably because that’s what he had.

He was a risk taker and a good strategist. For a kid with ADHD, he could play a game nonstop.

What is the #griefheart project?

I explain my #griefheart read more

She’s just trying to get attention

attentionseek

“She took all those pills just to get attention.”

“You know that phone call was just a cry for help.”

I have heard these phrases frequently as it relates to suicide attempts over the last few years.

Please never make the mistake of writing off a suicide attempt as “attention read more

Forever in our heart – #griefheart number 120

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Forever in our heart

I love this poem and I love how the angel is right next to the heart.

Don’t ever think you can’t talk about your child or honor his struggle because he died from overdose or by suicide. Addiction is an illness. Depression is an illness.

What is the #griefheart project?

I explain my #griefheart project here.

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Sad sack heart – #griefheart number 119

bag-heart

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Bag label

This is the brown bag that contains the clothing Charles was wearing when he died by suicide. What do you do with something like this? I still don’t know.

So I just leave them in a bag in a box in the closet. I do take the bag out and hug it every once in a while. I also hug his backpack read more