So the grief is like a tidal wave. When it hits, it hits hard. It can last a day or about a day and a half. Or sometimes shorter. But over the holidays the periods have stretched back out. They had gotten shorter and I know they will again. It maybe my journey but I?m not always the captain
Feeling heavy of heart
Thankful to have spent a lot of time with Charles so I have a lot of memories. Thankful for friends who have reached out and supported me
The weird things about grief I never knew.
So both my husband and I are absent minded, we?re both losing everything we touch and forgetting what we wanted to say mid-sentence. I?m getting lost leaving my house and putting all kinds of engagements on the wrong day. Yesterday, I apparently
Absolutely epic grief relapse this week. But today I forced myself on a long run to reset myself and today was better. Not perfect but not as dark. Talked to someone in recovery whose brother died by suicide. That helped. All of you out there helped. Your outreach is what I need. I am so blessed to
Today is one of those days when it hurts so so so bad. I miss my boy so much. It is so hard to have cared for a child so intensely only to have him vanish and no longer be in your life at all. It is so surreal, so unbelievable.
There are actually good things about grief. Believe it or not. You realize along life?s path, you can only control one person, yourself. And in grief, you realize you can?t always do that. You have to let the journey lead you and there are times you simply can?t fix yourself but
Those of you who have a child with special needs, mental health issues, learning or physical disabilities know how hard it is for that child to earn a high school degree. There are countless road blocks, problems, run ins with teachers over homework etc. Providing Charles with the support to finish
I know so many don’t know what to say to those who’ve suffered a loss, particularly that of a child and in the case of suicide.
Unfortunately, I can check both those boxes.
Suggestions on what to say
I made a pact to welcome any and all comments and never pass judgement on what someone has asked or said because it
I loved the Harry Potter Tour in London. But once they opened the doors to the studio, it hit me how much Charles Rogers would have loved this tour. I lost it and it was dark so I thought it was enough to hide my grief and my tears. Sometimes it just hits me like a punch to the heart.
So I find
Probably one of the toughest things about having a child that died, especially one that died by suicide, is that many people avoid you and say nothing. And yes, we notice. In fact, we are hyper sensitive to it.
It?s isolating and devastating enough without the added stress of someone obviously