Rogers’ toddlers in AlabaMO

We were in Alabama for Christmas and my in-law’s fortieth wedding anniversary. Charles is on the left and is 17 months old. Richard had just turned 3. Charles was building his vocabulary and he pronounces his new word in this video.

My boy Charles was so adorable. He was an adorable teenager, too. I love this video and I have watched it twenty times at least.

AlabaMO. That’s what I’m calling Alabama from now on.

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Rogers’ toddlers baking a birthday cake – 1996

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This short video shows you some of Charles’ personality. We were baking a cake together.

I do so miss this bubbly, fun child and when I look at these, I see no indication of what was to come. We were such a normal family. We went to parks and read books. We played games and went to the beach. I do enjoy these videos even though there are tears. Four years after Charles’ addiction and suicide, these offer more joy now than sadness and I’m grateful to have them.

Thanks to my editor in LA, the kid named … Read more...

Stuck in an airport hotel

Traveling back from Los Angeles from visiting my oldest, we hit a lightning storm which put us in a holding pattern and we missed our flight connection.

Years ago, this might have gotten me really flustered and upset. But once I lost a child to suicide, stuff like that doesn’t rile me up like it used to.

I also have something to look forward to Friday. Getting together with members of the club no one wants to be in. That always helps. Being with others who have lost a loved one to addiction and/or mental illness helps us all endure … Read more...

Met with Paul Gilmartin, host of Mental Illness Happy Hour

In my trip to Los Angeles to visit my son, I had reached out to Paul Gilmartin, host of the popular podcast, Mental Illness Happy Hour. Initially, I was interested in being a guest. I still am, however, Paul was booked out for the next few months so he asked if I wanted to get together for lunch. So that’s what we did.

Paul starred in a show called Dinner and a Movie and did a lot of comedy before hosting the his popular podcast.

Each of us shared our stories. He has suffered from mental illness and addiction and … Read more...

Enabling, boundaries, recovery, rock bottom

What are the definitions of these terms? And is there really an addiction dictionary?

The universal definition of enabling means giving someone the authority to do something. It can be looked at as a good thing in a business situation, for example. In the case of addiction or mental illness, it’s often a label we use in judgement of ourselves or others. So in behavioral health, we think enabling means are we helping the sufferer continue in their disease process.

Drilled down further, how are we doing that? By not kicking someone out of the house? By not putting our … Read more...

Family abbreviated

I had thought at some point, I’d “get used to” having a smaller family. Like after my son’s death by suicide, it was a matter of adapting to just the three of us. Not that I thought I’d forget or get over it.

While I’ve accepted that my youngest son is gone, it still feels like I’m cheating on him when we get together without him. There is a sense of strange sense of guilt for taking a family photo without Charles. Like they aren’t real. As if my family is an unfinished puzzle and we just need to locate … Read more...

Book Cover and Pre-Sale Book Link

Pre-order the book, Diary of a Broken Mind – $16.95, paperback

It will ship internationally from Fountain Bookstore once published. Estimated time of arrival in the US would be before or on October 1, 2019.

Publisher: Beach Glass Books

Book Description: 

The funniest, most popular kid in school, Charles Aubrey Rogers, suffered from depression, addiction, and died by suicide. Diary of a Broken Mind focuses on the relatable story of what lead to Charles’ suicide at age twenty and answers the “why” behind his addiction and this cause of death, revealed through a mother’s story and years of his … Read more...

Book Launch Party!

Who’s in? I hope you will support this launch by being at the party. If you can. Fountain is well known all across the U.S. for launching books/authors. Once I have a link for pre-orders, you know I’ll post it. Cover reveal coming September 3, 2019.

When: Tuesday, October 1, 2019

Where: Fountain Book Store

Time: 6:30pm

Book Description: The funniest, most popular kid in school, Charles Aubrey Rogers, suffered from depression, addiction, and died by suicide. Diary of a Broken Mind focuses on the relatable story of what lead to Charles’ suicide at age twenty and answers the “why” … Read more...

A manager’s guide on what to do after a suicide in the workplace

10 Steps to dealing with the aftermath of a suicide

Guide from American Association of Suicidology and The National Action Alliance for Suicide Prevention

The suicide death of clients, vendors, or a family member of an employee can have a profound impact in the workplace.

How do you manage the death with compassion and empathy? What does your staff need in order to process the loss or support the suicide loss survivor? How do you address the loss of this person appropriately? What does a manager do if the family has asked for non disclosure on the cause of death? … Read more...

That picture that prompts tears

Some pictures capture the very essence of my youngest child and his playful nature. This is one of them. I just can’t believe that child on the left suffered from depression and killed himself.

How did his brain shift from happy to “I need to kill myself.” It’s when I look back sometimes it seems so unbelievable. I wish I could have kept them young and innocent.

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