Lipstick Heart – #griefheart number 46

Lipstick Heart
Lipstick Heart

This heart is to raise awareness for the 45% increase in suicide rates in females from 1999-2014.

Middle-aged women 45-64, had the highest suicide rate among women and the largest increase? a whopping 63%. For females 10-14 years old, the suicide rate increased threefold between 1999 and read more

Super Heart – #griefheart number 45

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Super Heart

Charles loved super heroes. The “man of steel” was his favorite. All super heroes have some pain in their past and I think now he identified with that.

He was always intrigued with super powers and used to talk of mechanical hands and flying as late as eighth grade. I think he hoped a read more

Dragged through the mud – #griefheart number 44

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It?s been a long time since I?ve made a mud pie. But I made one today. I do feel like I?ve had a grief relapse lately. When I?ve talked to other moms in this ?club,? they tell me it?s the result of being close to the death anniversary of June 5. It?s read more

Love & Lace – #griefheart number 43

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Love & Lace

Today, two of my dearest friends, Paul and MaryJo Hughes, hosted their daughter?s wedding. I was so excited for them and for Brianna and Michael Palowitch. An absolutely stunning event. With each of these life events, there will be tears of sadness that Charles won?t have these moments. read more

Prickly Heart – #griefheart number 41

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Prickly Heart

This is an original photo from a friend of mine. Obviously I don’t have desert as a yard.

But it does represent how my heart feels some days. Today especially. It just feels like a bunch sharp things are stuck in your heart. And it hurts.

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Lyrical Heart -#griefheart number 40

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Lyrical heart

Charles had a way with words. From stories he wrote to songs he rapped, he was something else with a pen. This was his way of coping as it is mine.

He would take these magnet words and make the funniest sentences that only Charles could think of. He was master of funny. Such a creative genius.

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Street Heart – #griefheart number 39

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Street Heart

We went to the Westover Hills neighborhood picnic and I’m watching the kids play. I turn slightly to the left and there it was, staring me in the face in a big clearing calling my name.

I had been remembering how much Charles loved to play. Loved chalk, the bouncy thing, the balloons, the read more

Crying Heart – #griefheart number 38

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Crying Heart

The shower is the best place to cry. The good news is that I don’t cry everyday in the shower like I once did.

Sometimes I just have nice memories in the shower. But when I really want to let loose, I do it here most of the time. It might hurt like crazy but I let it all hang out and it feels read more

Grieving Beauty – #griefheart number 37

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Grieving Beauty

“Weave the unveiling fabric of God’s word through your heart and mind. It will hold strong, even if the rest of life unravels.” –Gigi Graham Tchividjian

quote-leftWhen I lost my brother, Matt Geary, to suicide four years ago, it felt like life had unraveled. The grief process has been like read more