breaking up with addiction

Dear Addiction

by anonymous, male, 55

Our relationship has come to a decision point.  Although we have been spending a lot of time alone with each other, and have gotten to know each other quite well, I have decided it’s time you moved out. 

You have become too demanding, too possessive, and too unhealthy for me. Others that I love more than you will no longer stay with me if I stay with you.  So, I am moving on and you are moving out.  

I know I have done this before and always welcomed you back, and each time it was as if I never left, but this time I have gotten smarter.  I have realized that I need help to get rid of you, so I have been going to this room of fellowship.  There are wise people in this room, and they have helped me immensely.  I have learned a lot about you, and I am much stronger than ever before and too strong to fall for any of your tricks or triggers.

I admit I was the one that started the relationship.  I was young and thought you were exciting and fun.  It was great to sneak off and meet you for a night of stupid adventures.  You helped me through a lot of awkward times, but as the years passed you continued to want more of my time, and I gave it to you.  At first, it was a special occasion.  Then it was weekends.  Now we see each other almost every day.

You have changed me for the worse.  You got me fat.  You took away my sense of adventure. Out you go.

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Anne Moss Rogers

I am an emotionally naked mental health speaker, and author of the Book, Diary of a Broken Mind and co-author with Kim O'Brien PhD, LICSW of Emotionally Naked: A Teacher's Guide to Preventing Suicide and Recognizing Students at Risk. I raised two boys, Richard and Charles, and lost my younger son, Charles to addiction and suicide on June 5, 2015. I help people foster a culture of connection to prevent suicide, reduce substance misuse and find life after loss. My motivational mental health keynotes, training and workshop topics include suicide prevention, addiction, mental illness, anxiety, coping strategies/resilience, and grief. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now the legacy I try and carry forward in my son's memory. Mental Health Speakers Website. Trained in ASIST and trainer for the evidence-based 4-hour training for everyone called safeTALK.

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