It’s the holidays and I had fun. I had no expectation that it would be.
After Charles’ suicide, I focused more on friends and family and less on stuff and decorations. It’s the connections that I need. Not more stuff. In fact, I can’t help but look around and want to purge some stuff .
It’s nice to be invited to things again. Our social life had dwindled when Charles struggled with drugs and alcohol and then it died when he did. Of course, it did. I didn’t want to spend quite that much time with myself, though.
I just wanted you to know it’s possible. That years later you can have fun and not hate being alive.
And the holidays are a time for me to reconnect with my support group. They are having a candlelight ceremony for our loved ones. Fellowship, food, some fun, and mourning (all in the same 1.5 hours.) If you are in Richmond, VA and you’ve lost someone to suicide, meet me there.
Here are some other grief resources if you need them. Whatever place you find yourself in this time of year, do connect. That could mean AA, NA, FA, Al-anon, mental health support group, ED support group and so on. Find your peeps. You might just find yourself having fun.
