I just want to end the pain

Your brain is telling you need to die. The pain is so unbearable, you start to think that is the only solution. You think there is no other way out and the world would be better if you weren’t in it.

You just want that pain to stop. Your brain convinces you the only way is to kill yourself. All other options are blocked. Your focus narrows and it’s ALL you can think about.

You don’t really want to die. But at the same time you do want to die.

The pain will stop without you dying. It usually takes around 15-20 minutes although it varies. But like all feelings, it is temporary.

Life wins with most people, most of the time. You may even feel you are in trouble and want to tell someone. You wish someone would just listen.

But it’s so much harder to do. Will someone think you’re weak? Will someone just tell you are trying to “get attention.” Maybe you fear that your confession means you’ll lose a spouse or a job, a girlfriend or boyfriend or a parent’s love.

It’s really hard to tell someone else how dark it is in your head. Who would believe it?

You just want someone to give you a hug. Or to listen to you.

I will listen. Others here will listen. They will listen on these hotlines. This feeling can be treated. But right now you just need some help saving your own life.

USA Suicide & Crisis Lifeline call 988
USA Crisis Text 741-741
Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for Veterans call 988, press 1
USA Crisis Line for LGBTQ Youth, call 1-866-488-7386
USA Crisis Text for LGBTQ Youth 678-678
USA TransLifeline call, 1-833-456-4566
USA Suicide Prevention Lifeline & Chat for the Deaf or Hearing impaired. Or dial 711 then 988
United Kingdom Samaritans 116 123
Australia Crisis Line 13 11 14
Canada Crisis Line 1-833-456-4566
Canada TransLifeline 877-330-6366
International suicide hotlines

I lost my youngest son, Charles, to suicide. You can read about Charles here. I don’t want you to die because you still have sunsets to see, lives to touch, and places to go.

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AnneMoss Rogers

AnneMoss Rogers is a mental health and suicide education expert, mental health speaker, suicide prevention trainer and consultant. She is author of the Book, Diary of a Broken Mind and co-author of Emotionally Naked: A Teacher's Guide to Preventing Suicide and Recognizing Students at Risk with Kim O'Brien PhD, LICSW. She raised two boys, Richard and Charles, and lost her younger son, Charles to addiction and suicide on June 5, 2015. She is a motivational speaker who empowers by educating and provides life saving strategies and emotionally healthy coping skills. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now that's the legacy she carries forward in her son's memory. Mental Health Speakers Website.

6 thoughts on “I just want to end the pain”

  1. I have a controlling parent who wants to dictate everything about my life. They have been forcing me to do things I don’t want and marry someone I don’t like. I want to leave but they threaten that something bad might happen to them if I leave. I’m hanging by a thread now. I ordered a rope online to hang myself.

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