As I suffered through the mental illness and addiction of my child, I curled up in a ball and folded up inside myself. Back then there was little support even when I reached out for it and wanted to talk.
But things changed.
I found a support group who was willing to be there for me but when things really got bad, I pulled inside myself again instead of relying on the network of love available to me.
When my son relapsed, so did I.
I don’t want to make that mistake again. Because I won’t get a badge of honor for going solo in grief. I suspect that’s the reason I am now emotionally naked in public. You guys and my daily posting schedule keeps me accountable.
Wise words, Anne Moss. It’s so hard for me to reach out, but I’m better off when I do.
It is for me, too. Writing this blog forces me to do that and it does help so much.
And helps so many others too…
It’s so many things I never expected. That is the good part. And I had no idea there would be a good part.