Overwhelmed, Defeated and then Excited

I felt that way in that order today.

I’m in at a small writer’s conference in Brooklyn, New York called SLICE. While I know a ton about marketing and social media having owned a digital marketing company, the publishing world is completely new and I needed to really immerse myself here to get the lay of the land.

I wanted to yell in the morning. There are queries, pitches and then a proposal and I’m not sure what goes in any of this stuff. I have drafts of all of the above but I feel lost. I’m also not up on all the vocabulary. Back list? Front list? That’s the overwhelmed part.

I met Susan Casey, my first reader, in person today, She’s the one pictured above and who so generously went through my book and made suggestions for editing. This was a good part.

Then I realized after listening to so many of the panels, this process of getting published could take more than a year. Several even. That’s the part where I felt defeated. I really wanted to cry at that point.

I was determined I was not going to end my day with that feeling of defeat.

So I went to the last panel. It was really good and I had the opportunity to ask the question that had been bothering me. I started getting excited.

You guys know I’ll figure it all out and you have been telling me, encouraging me to write a book since I started writing on Facebook right after Charles’ suicide. Thank you for your faith in me. Thank you for your encouragement.

This message needs to be out there. Charles’ words and my story answer so much of the ‘why’ behind addiction and suicide.

I’m meeting with an agent tomorrow. At this point, all I’m hoping for is feedback on all these documents I need to market the book.  (Back to that overwhelming part.) Finding an agent won’t be easy but I know all of you have my back and I so appreciate your support when I’ve needed it most.

Your sharing is how this site has reached so many and together we have saved lives already. I won’t let you down. I promise you that. Because we are a team.

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Anne Moss Rogers

I am the mother of two boys and the owner of emotionally naked, a site that reached a quarter million people in its first 18 months. I am a writer and professional public speaker on the topics of suicide, addiction, mental illness, and grief and currently working on getting a book published. I lost my youngest son, Charles, 20, to suicide June 5, 2015. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now the legacy I try and carry forward in my son's memory.

4 thoughts on “Overwhelmed, Defeated and then Excited”

  1. I’m so proud of you, Anne Moss! You have shared so much of yourself that I feel like I know you personally, and I’m cheering for you in the “stands.”

  2. Anne…your son left you with such a hole but also with such insight in to how he was struggling…his gift to you in his passing..i would not have that if roles reversed. ..keep pushing forward, dont give up…we parents are so tired but especially those who have lost their children and are fighting to make this horrible loss in to something positive and productive. ..these children of ours are such gentle souls,who struggled and continue to struggle to make their way in a world we don’t experience the same way they do…only by talking, sharing, writing etc will we be able to understand and hopefully at some time come to some resolution..mine eill be through photography, yours,the written word. ..hugs,warrior mom

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