Creative. Innovative. Good looking. Rich. Successful.
And died by suicide.
He had so much money. So much fame. He wanted for nothing.
But a brain that suffers from depression doesn’t care about fame or money.
I rarely watched the show but I’m watching it now. And I’ve noticed he is emotionally naked and shows us parts unknown through the lens of food. It was a conduit.
He saw food as emotional.
He was passionate, empathetic, authentic and vulnerable. He called himself a lucky cook who tells stories.
He suffered from addiction to heroin back in the eighties. From what I’ve seen, it was his depression that drove his heroin use. Just like my son, Charles.
Those who suffer both are six times more likely to die by suicide. I didn’t find out that fact until after I lost my own son.
Anthony Bourdain’s mother was shocked he killed himself. Just like we were when Charles died by suicide. It doesn’t matter at what age your child dies. It hurts like hell. We’re never prepared for that kind of end. We can’t believe anyone would ever kill themselves.
I was glad his mom spoke out because to me it meant she was not ashamed. Maybe that’s a stretch.
He leaves an 11 year old daughter. And she needs empathy and support as do all his family, his friends and his fans.