So there is a story behind these. Pun intended since this is a photo of the back end of my most comfortable jeans. So the denim style now is skin tight. That’s NOT the style of this old pair. These are well worn and soft. Because of that, holes appear in the rear. And when they do, I make a patch out of leftover jean material and sew it on to cover the hole.
These are my book writing jeans. Mondays are my dedicated days for writing my book and I’m currently working on draft number two, having completing draft one.
So this past week, I’m sitting in my pajama jeans and editing my book, I felt all this heat in my eyebrows and they itched. I got up to take a look and I had broken out in hives from eyebrows to my forehead. What the h_ll?
It’s that time of year when the slightest little rash or bump blows up on my face. I have always called it the grief rash. My skin, during this time, is ultra sensitive and I think that I am too emotional to have the perspective to edit the book and I have to take a break for a couple of weeks until I get through Charles’ birthday month.
It’s my time to feel close to my son, honor his memory but also understand that like my old jeans, my heart is softer right now and more vulnerable to tearing.
What is the #griefheart project?
I explain my #griefheart project here. Contact me if you want to honor and remember your loved one who died by suicide or from addiction.
See all #griefhearts so far on pinterest or on this blog by #griefheart category.
8 thoughts on “Pajama jeans love— #griefheart number 282”
I so appreciate the way you share the raw emotion. By this action alone you help your readers more than you can imagine. May you have peace in the moment, one moment at a time.
Thank you Katy. So much. I guess I don’t always realize that.
Thinking of you Anne and glad that you are taking a little break. I hope that your happy memories of Charles will comfort you during these heart-wrenched months.
Yeah I think big red hives are serving notice! Thank you Ann.
I love that you are giving yourself grace and room to be a grieving mom. You do so much for the addiction/suicide/grieving community—it’s good you are pulling back from at least one thing for now, during this difficult time of the year. Take care of yourself. ❤️
Thank you Amy. I just know I am more limited.
Sending love your way as you navigate this tough time of year.
Thank you Leigh. Navigating is the hard part! But I know I will survive. I know I will smoke at a memory and cry over others.