The grief rash

The birthday rash. The holiday heavy. The death anniversary hot flashes. The mother’s day stomach ache.

Grief has physical symptoms that are so profound.

I was listening to the Dermatology Show on ‘Dr. Radio’ recently and the doctor on the show was explaining that she and one of her patients could not figure out why at one particular time of year, her psoriasis would flare up really badly.

The doctor asked her patient if there was anything stressful going on in her life or was there anything about that particular month. Then the patient said that in the month of March, ten years ago, her son had been murdered and the grief during that month was insurmountable. The doctor looked over records as she had treated the patient for nearly 5 years and they finally found the pattern–during that month, she had had awful flare ups.

Once I heard that, I started to think.

For the last two spring seasons in April since Charles died, I’ve gotten an angry rash right below my eyelids. I have had a little rash in spring seasons before but nothing like this. I know they are caused by allergies.

This whole month, I woke up with swollen, red, crusty eye rashes. Worse than ever.

Charles’ birthday is April 26.

The day after his birthday, that rash is practically gone. One more day later, it’s cleared up– just like that.

After I lost my son to suicide, the emotional pain came as no surprise. But the physical symptoms and physical pain that came with it were not expected.

What I miss most about Charles

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Anne Moss Rogers

I am the mother of two boys and the owner of emotionally naked, a site that reached a quarter million people in its first 18 months. I am a writer and professional public speaker on the topics of suicide, addiction, mental illness, and grief and currently working on getting a book published. I lost my youngest son, Charles, 20, to suicide June 5, 2015. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now the legacy I try and carry forward in my son's memory.

2 thoughts on “The grief rash”

  1. This is amazing. The power of grief is incredible. We often forget that it manifests physically. Thank you for sharing and continuing to educate us!

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