I’m running out of time, the feeling of despair is unbearable

cry for help

By Luis

This from a 21 year old feeling the despair of suicidal thoughts. He gave permission for me to post it here. He commented on my You Tube page and I saw it. The emotional pain of these thoughts that attack someone’s brain is so naked and so painful. Your worst day times 100. Fortunately, this young man survived by sticking it out and talking. He told me Charles’ Video saved his life. 

When I was just 15 years old I was attacked and stabbed in the head and neck area twice by a random man (I was walking on the sidewalk on my way home).

He who never knew me, I never knew him. He nearly killed me. After spending a month in the hospital intensive care unit, I was shocked I was still alive, because a month before I was laying in my own pool of blood, bleeding out.

I am now 21 and that happened six years ago and it’s extremely hard to even want live anymore.

It’s hard writing this but I’m doing my best. Hopefully someone will read this and gain strength for their own struggles.

I don’t ever want someone to go through the pain I went through. I’m still dealing with this.

I’ve been through so much

I’m suffering so much

I need help. 🙁

I don’t want to hurt my mom.

So you are contemplating suicide…

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Anne Moss Rogers

I am an emotionally naked TEDx speaker, and author of the Book, Diary of a Broken Mind. I raised two boys, Richard and Charles, and lost my youngest son, Charles to substance use disorder and suicide June 5, 2015. I help people foster a culture of connection to prevent suicide, reduce substance misuse and find life after loss. My motivational, training and workshop topics include suicide prevention, addiction, mental illness, and grief. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now the legacy I try and carry forward in my son's memory. Professional Speaker Website. Trained in ASIST and trainer for the evidence-based 4-hour training for everyone called safeTALK.

2 thoughts on “I’m running out of time, the feeling of despair is unbearable”

  1. I am a big fan of Jordan Peterson PhD
    He has a National Bestseller out and no doubt you have heard of him?
    In his You Tube lecture series Dr Petersen discusses suicide and points out that suicide has shared several common denominators
    Also Charles Mom , have you met or do you know of Senator Creigh Deeds of Charlottesville ,Va ?

    Hugs Charles Mom
    From Kate’s Mom

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