My name is Madeline. I’m a 19 year old girl from Massachusetts.
I sat down at a computer the other day, and suddenly I thought about a YouTube channel name that I frequented as a kid when I was 12 years old or so.
Timeboy1408. It was your son’s channel.
I remember spending many nights laughing and enjoying his videos. He got me through some really tough times. And though I never met your son, I had a huge crush on him.
Eventually he had stopped using that channel and I figured he had just quit YouTube. I mentioned that channel to a friend tonight and we did some research.
We found his rap YouTube channel. And then googled his name. Which has lead us here. I am very sad to hear about your son’s passing. I felt like I would just reach out and remind you, your son was a great man, who really did make an impact in other’s lives. He helped me through so much.
I went through much of your website last night, and it’s easy to see that you’re a very strong woman. I guess what I had hoped would happen when I snooped around for information about Charles, was that I would find a new YouTube channel and see him happy and making the same hilarious videos. And if I did find him I was going to be reaching out just to let him know that he helped me through a lot.
The shock last night was absolutely incredible. My friend and I had been researching for almost an hour before we found out. Part of me still doesn’t want to grasp it because in a few ways it feels like I’ve lost an old friend.
Around the time that I was watching your son’s videos, I was struggling with mental illness. But being only 12-13 years old, it’s hard to verbalize what I was going through.
I come from a broken home. My father was addicted to pain killers. He has since gotten clean. I made several attempts on my life around this point in time. I would often self harm as a method of coping. My mom and I never saw eye to eye and I would get kicked out of my home often. I can’t tell you how many times I ended up sleeping in the woods by my house.
My mom has just recently developed a drug problem and kicked me out back in June for telling her that I was worried and maybe she should get some help.
I’m fine now, with a roof over my head and a job, but as a kid I never thought I’d live to see 19. In the past few weeks my major depressive disorder has been absolute hell and maybe that’s why your son came to mind, because he always did make me laugh.