Wish list

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I wish I could have one more hug.

I wish I had known that phone call was my last.

I wish Charles had not died by suicide.

I wish my dreams of his future had not been shattered.

I wish I was not staring at an empty seat at our holiday table.

I wish I had a my own dream of Jeanie.

But I am thankful, too.

Thankful I stayed home with my children and I have those memories.

Thankful that I have the love and support that I do.

Thankful Charles was part of my life.

Thankful for what the experience has taught me.

Thankful I have the opportunity to carry on my son’s legacy.

Thankful I still have faith some wishes can come true.

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A letter I wrote Charles in 1999 that was opened in 2010

 

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Anne Moss Rogers

I am the mother of two boys and the owner of emotionally naked, a site that reached a quarter million people in its first 18 months. I am a writer and professional public speaker on the topics of suicide, addiction, mental illness, and grief and currently working on getting a book published. I lost my youngest son, Charles, 20, to suicide June 5, 2015. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now the legacy I try and carry forward in my son's memory.

2 thoughts on “Wish list”

  1. Rough day for you I know. Feel blessed to have your own special Angel watching over you. Feel blessed for the inspiration and movement you have created. It’s a double edged sword, I know, but your blog was spot on and you have so many friends new and old alike who are supporting you always. 😊😇

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