This website was hacked. I know many of you noticed because I got so many, “Where is it?” messages.
What I didn’t expect was how devastated and out of sorts I would be. I didn’t realize how attached I was to the village I have cultivated here.
I missed writing. I missed your commentary. And it was only down 38 hours but it felt like a month.
It was then I realized this is my baby.
As you guys know, I post something every day. The attack felt so personal, I literally felt like I was losing my child all over again.
My newly merged team helped out and ultimately I went and got protection that would help me avoid being targeted again. So it got fixed.
I had to steer myself away from self pity mode multiple times. My reaction was so unexpected. My therapy outlet gone.
I know I can write on a word doc. I actually started this post in one. But I have so many ideas stored on the site and I could not get to them.
Fortunately, this loss was fixable. The loss of my child is not. But this site represents love of what I lost and for that reason, it hurt to lose that lifeline for even just a few hours.