There are actually good things about grief. Believe it or not. You realize along life’s path, you can only control one person, yourself. And in grief, you realize you can’t always do that. You have to let the journey lead you and there are times you simply can’t fix yourself but you can guide yourself.
In this journey that absolutely no one wants to be on, you simply see more things than you saw before, let things go that are not important and reach out and touch people you would have never thought to connect with. You also learn other things about your child you didn’t know. Good things. Sweet things.
There are things you didn’t understand before that become so clear to you that you wonder why it was ever fuzzy. At some point, these memories and my outreach will take up more space in my life than the pain of my loss. And I can’t dictate or predict when that will happen. I just have to let it happen. I think the hardest part of any journey is knowing when to let go and when to kick yourself in the butt to get yourself out of a rut. So I’ll end this with something that Charles wrote…
“As dark as my life’s like, I can still smile at the bright side and see the silver lining even when it’s nighttime.”
From Silver Lining – Charles Aubrey Rogers
