A painful day

A painful day. Meetings provided some distraction.

I was at the Comcast office today and I asked the CSR what his tattoo represented. He said it was for his mom who died when he was 15. He was about 28-30.

I asked him flat out if she had been a heroin addict and died from that disease. And he said yes. How did I know to ask? How did I just know that sun tattoo represented a mother who died of addiction? How could I have been so bold to ask that of a perfect stranger? I don’t know. I just did. He was not offended and we had a nice chat. He wanted to hear about Charles. He was so nice.

Charles was a very sweet and tender son. He always said “I love you” and even as a baby gave the most heartfelt hugs. I remember as a two year old when he’d get stressed I’d pick him up and he’d just wrap his arms around my neck and pat my back. He was actually soothing himself. I just loved that. I needed that hug today so bad I ached for it. I hope I never forget how good those felt. You just felt you really meant something when he hugged you like that.

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Anne Moss Rogers

I am an emotionally naked TEDx speaker, and author of the Book, Diary of a Broken Mind. I raised two boys, Richard and Charles, and lost my youngest son, Charles to substance use disorder and suicide June 5, 2015. I help people foster a culture of connection to prevent suicide, reduce substance misuse and find life after loss. My motivational, training and workshop topics include suicide prevention, addiction, mental illness, and grief. As talented and funny as Charles was, letting other people know they matter was his greatest gift. And now the legacy I try and carry forward in my son's memory. Professional Speaker Website. Trained in ASIST and trainer for the evidence-based 4-hour training for everyone called safeTALK.

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